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hi is *he* there? ... she trys to control her breathing while she waits for him to come to the fone ...what if im being to foreward.. what if it ment nothing to him .... what if i was used... hello? hey .. guess who? she bounces into the fone... hey! whats up ? .. they jabber on about pretty much nothing .. a slight tension in the air ... shes alwais been good about ruining things by tearing up the tension and asking exactly what she wants to know .. or tryign to atleast...so uh ... fridai ... did u have fun ? .. yea... silence... she blurts clumsily into the fone about how he was a good kisser .. then asked how she was tryign to ease the mood .. they continued down the path of subjects that caused them to be the most uncomfortable... this is what they ment by akward teen yrs... but she is almost an adult.. she sighs inside... her mom walks in and starts to yell ... i have to go ill talk to you tomarrow... bye.. she feels guilty she had him so close to finding out how he felt..


she sprints over to him pretending to be right be hind him the whole time .. hey starshine she beams at him ... how did he get so cute.. when did she become so stuck on him ... why cant she get away... she hugs him ... imediatly she feels like shes imposing herself... well i have to go now by! she bounces awai ... i wish he would make the doubt go awai .......
she picks up the fone ... dont call him yet .. are you out of ur mind... wait... he prolly isnt even home yet... wait.. she starts to drift awai ... the beeps the foine abit .. then decides to wait some more... finally she dials his number... they talk and shes worried.. she doesnt want to loose him as a friend either... he explains the situation a bit .. she wants to cry .. and be held... shes scared... she knows even if she can have him she has to deal with her parents... i still want him she defiantly repeats in her mind... trust my intuition ... its a good thing ....


she feels guilty every time she gets off the fone with him .... she worries to much .. o well she sighs...